November 13, 2011

Scattered

I feel a bit scattered and frenetic at the moment.  I'm also bothered by the fact that I've not finished anything I've started.  I've finished a couple of patterns, but I've not sewn them myself.  I get this way....  Perhaps if I finalized a Breaking Dawn Charity Quilt design, then I could figure out the blocks, and so forth.

I think I'll be better after Breaking Dawn comes out on November 18.  I'm having a hard time focusing through my feelings of anticipaton.  I'll have a whole year to work on things before Part 2 is released if I stay interested.  I'm also looking forward to 2012 for many other reasons.

I do feel like I'm finding my groove.  I'm trying to feel comfortable in the fact that paper piecing is my preferred method of quilting.  I'm trying to feel confident in the fact that I can make patterns according to my vision.  I'm trying to rid myself of feelings of competiveness that drive me and also make me feel like my blocks have to be like those out there.   My blocks have a lot of detail because I don't like to give that up, but it makes them complicated....and annoying.

If I'm designing for myself as I keep telling myself, then I need to make no apologies.  In the back of my mind and an integral part of what drives me, though, is the idea that others might appreciate my work.  I know I'm not supposed to care, but I do.

It takes a supreme effort for me to be organized.  I probably should be designing the blocks according to some type of plan.  I seem to be stuck on the covens for some reason--probably because I feel the need to answer the blocks that have been presented by Twi-Quilters so far.  (I know...I know....).  I'm working on two blocks right now:  the Egyptian Coven and the Romanians.

I do have plans, oh, so many plans.  It kills me that I don't have more time and know-how to execute them.  I'm not really on any time schedule per se, but I do feel the need to hurry up get things done.  When I feel the pressure, though, procrastination sets in.

Thank you!

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